I wrote what doesn’t feel like a lot, but in retrospect is actually quite a respectable amount in 2018. All totaled I posted 92,898 words to AO3, and between that and miscellaneous prompt fills here on tumblr (not to mention a metric ton of chatfic) I’m fairly sure I hit my 100k word goal for the year. Yay!
Here are the fics, by the numbers:
January
(none)
February
tomorrow is not promised (but tonight is on the table)
Borderlands, rhack, 13,627 words, soulmates AU
March
i can’t lie to you about your chances
Borderlands, rhack/rhackothy, 4,796 words, written for @sailorfuckthisshit for Borderlands Reverse Bang
what we (could) have
Borderlands, nishothy, 2,029 words, written for @pandoranmama for Borderlands Reverse Bang
April
Bullet for the Devil
Borderlands, rhack, 8,114 words, bad cop au
that one can see rightly
Persona 5, Akira/Joker/Arsene, 4,062 words, the first of several in which Joker makes an independent appearance
a knife is only as good as the one who wields it
Persona 5, Akira/Joker, 2,024 words, I wanted to write Akira and Joker playing with knives so I did
things i didn’t tell you (because i didn’t know)
Persona 5, pegoryu, 2,346 words, I started Ryuji’s confidant route and saw the light
just let it out (light it up)
Persona 5, Akira/Joker/Arsene, 2,351 words, Akira needs a safe space to unwind and who safer than himself
May
it’s time to get up and let go (you’re gonna come undone)
Persona 5, pegoryu, Akira/Joker/Ryuji, 3,387 words, Joker as an independent entity plus pegoryu, what’s not to like there I ask you
it’s a strange way of saying that I know I’m supposed to love you
Persona 5, pegoryu, 2,359 words, Ryuji gets hurt a lot and Akira doesn’t like it
June
not that kind of service (except when it is)
Persona 5, Akira/Akechi/Iwai, 2,876 words, shameless maid service au
all you have is your fire
Persona 5, akeshu, Shido/Akira, 2,553 words, That One Fic, comes with a serious content warning, mind those tags for real
July
what we keep close we’ll never lose
Persona 5, Goro Akechi & Loki, 2,172 words, a belated birthday present to myself
August
this isn’t what it looks like (you’re looking at it wrong)
Persona 5, Akira/Iwai, 3,291 words, some friends made a convincing argument for Akira/Iwai and I tripped on my keyboard
goodbye (hello)
Persona 5, pegoryu, 2,927 words, I made myself real sad about Akira’s life after the events of P5
as the stars go, so do I
Persona 5, pegoryugoro, 2,305 words, a very self-indulgent space au
i’m navigating blind (but maybe you can help)
Persona 5, pegoryu, 2,737 words, a second installment in a very self-indulgent space au
September
(none)
October
Kinktober 2018 Fills (finished in December)
Persona 5, pairings: many, 20,539 words all totaled, AUs: many
November
(none)
December
living too fast, too slow
Persona 5, akeshu, 1,417 words, Akira gets into a fight and Goro patches him up
when the sun sets in the east
Persona 5, ryugoro, 1,104 words, roleswap au where Akechi is the leader of the Phantom Thieves
you’re a loaded gun (and my finger’s on the trigger)
Persona 5, Joker/Akira/Akechi, 2,839 words, guns and makeouts
my heart will destroy us
Persona 5, Joker/Akira/Akechi, 3,043 words, guns and makeouts gets a sequel
Laying it out like this, I can spot exactly what was going on in the months where I didn’t post anything: January - depression; September - job turmoil; November - Kinktober burnout and fandom anxiety. So the lesson for me in 2019 is: take better care of myself, because when I feel like crap I don’t write, and when I don’t write I feel like crap, and so on. Writing can be self-care, but it can also be a way to beat yourself up when you feel like you’re not doing it right (or enough), so I’m going to try to move away from the second and toward the first.
That’s a lot of words, and a lot of words about my words. Thank you for sticking with me, and as always, an eternal thank you for reading. <3
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